FIRST MONTH
- May
- Sep 22, 2016
- 3 min read
There’s this guy I haven’t met.
We’re players—the literal meaning actually. During the hay day of Clash of Clans, I was so inclined with the game not because of the game itself but because of the players I was a member with. His name is Mark.
Before we even had the chance to really talk things out, he didn’t know how I became a stalker. The clan has its own Facebook group I searched. He’s the leader. I was curious. I checked his profile and the only thing that came to my mind was “Police. Nope.”
Yet still, I have kept a close look on this guy. His serious tone when chatting is a huge mystery to me. Like he made me wonder who he is behind the veil of COC. And when the opportunity offered to be his friend in Facebook, I was honestly hesitant. Normally, I don’t add people. It’s the other way around. As it turns out, I did the adding. He didn’t accept me though so I cancelled the request. After weeks, he asked me to send the request again—and I did.
The world knows I keep my principle on me. But to whatever reason, I broke some on this guy. Do I like him? Honestly, no. I was just curious. And I remember that time I was still head-over-heels with Ton and my former suitor LA and I was having rough waves so another guy in the picture is not my thing. But we still chatted and it was an endless one like we can’t just keep ourselves from talking about just everything.
Did I like him? Probably. He’s making me feel important and I don’t have any idea why he’s doing it. It sucks though because I cannot point out the things that are making us closer each day. I just let the water flow. I was busy. I was always busy. But he didn’t falter to keep me in his watch.
He was reviewing for his board exams—same with Ton—and I was more focused with Ton especially after our Baguio trip. And the day came when I realized that I haven’t heard anything from Mark. And that’s the first time I missed him. I dropped a message.
To cut it short, more or less than a year after, Mark became the reason of my happiness.
I took the risk of loving a man, conquering my fear, and most importantly, letting go of my painful past. I didn’t know life will turn to twist the way I didn’t expect it to be. But who would have thought? I am now in love with this man. And it’s the happiest, most amazing feelings to live.
Mark, I love you.
I have no idea why but I just can’t let you go. You make me whole, you make me see my worth, and you make me want to be a better person. The goals we set are the things I wanted to do with you. I sometimes wish you’re not beyond my grasp but for whatever reason God made us lovers amidst the distance, I am willing to be more patient until I can finally be inside your arms and feel your warmth.
Baby, I love you.
I may be moody but I know you love me more than my moods. I want to keep you babe. Until when? Time will tell. But if I were to decide, I’d like to keep you forever and beyond. Thank you baby. Happy first to us.
Love from Cebu to Aklan,
Lynette
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